“LET THE NIGHT SING” BOOK LAUNCH   

 

 “LET THE NIGHT SING” BOOK LAUNCH

 

“For most of history, Anonymous was a woman.” — Virginia Woolf

 

In the lands of today, many things have changed yet everything is the same, astray. A fact I can properly say that we humans might take to our graves. Poetry and stories help us talk about those changes in life that have happened and most importantly the changes people want to make.

Feminism is the mother of many changes that society has had over the years and nowadays more and more women and men alike are talking and writing about it.

29th July, 2017 was one such day, esteemed writer Lopamudra Banerjee launched her book of poems titled “Let the Night Sing”, a tribute to not just her experiences as a mother, a daughter, a lover but also as a woman.

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(From left) Ms Sufia Khatoon,Dr Santosh Bakaya, Lopamudra Banerjee, Dr Sanjukta Dasgupta

When we asked her about her feelings regarding the topic of feminism and what her stance is as a feminist, she told us that feminism is an elemental but yet an essential part of humanism according to her. Her words were:In her book she has graced us with many poems, one being about the women of the illustrious brothel of Calcutta, Sonagachi. She says that many of her poems are her reactions to existential issues dealing with women such as the plight of Jyoti Singh, the spirit of Malala Yousufzai to name a couple.

 

“raw, vulnerable entities of women in our everyday lives form the tapestry that is my muse in this life”.

She said she uses this raw energy in her writingsLet The Night Sing Cover 2.jpg and this energy is what defines her identity as a woman. In her non-fiction book “Thwarted Escape” and her present “Let the Night Sing” she claims to have strived to essay the inward journey of women that’s replete.

During our talk with her, she with her undying humility referred to herself as a lover of the night. “I’m in love with night” being her exact words, and the reason for the title of her book. She explained that she has narrated her feelings about love, attachment, and even relationships in the form of her many poems. She has talked about the relationship between a mother and a daughter, the relationship between her daughters and their father, and even her love for her city in this book.

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Dr Santosh Bakaya, Lopamudra Banerjee, Dr Sanjukta Dasgupta

“At the same time, many others are written as surreal inner sojourns which come from an intense personal space where I delve deep into my childhood, my motherhood and also my personal anguish resulting from the loss of loved ones. For example, in my poem ‘For Fathers and Daughters’, I have presented a dedication to my daughters and their relationship with their father where my childhood also comes to haunt me as a melancholic melody, in context of his terminal ailment and later, his demise.”  Her emotions being her drive in her works, we asked her what she finds to be the feeling she finds most difficult to write on. She told it to be “the intensity of my longings as a woman, a Diaspora being”. She shed light on the fact that out of the various recollection of memories in her pages shadowing mists, there are a few that did make her bleed more than she could give.

She says that apart from this, writing about other painful experiences like her mother’s demise was immensely difficult for her but she had to, for her own good.

“I write about a plethora of poems ranging from personal trauma and anguish, including my mother’s demise, and putting them in words were indeed challenging, but I had to do it for my own catharsis.”

It’s a collection of all these “broken pieces” that she says make up “Let the Night Sing” so I urge you all to please give it a read. It is a humble woman’s journey while taking the heinous thorns and splinters of life, but still never losing faith in it’s beauty at the same time.

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Lopamudra Banerjee is a writer, poet, editor and translator, currently based in Dallas, USA. She has a Masters’ degree with thesis in creative nonfiction writing from the Department of English, University of Nebraska at Omaha. She is the co-editor of the bestselling anthology on women, ‘Defiant Dreams: Tales of Everyday Divas’.
‘Thwarted Escape: An Immigrant’s Wayward Journey’, her debut memoir/nonfiction novel, published by Authorspress, has recently received Honorable Mention at the Los Angeles Book Festival 2017. The manuscript has also been a First Place Category Winner at the Journey Awards 2014 hosted by Chanticleer Reviews and Media LLC. Her literary works have appeared in numerous journals and anthologies, both in India and the US and her fiction is published in Silhouette I & II anthology, by Authorspress.
She has received the Reuel International Award 2016 (category: Translation) for her English translation of Rabindranath Tagore’s novella Nastanirh (translated as The Broken Home) instituted by The Significant League, a renowned literature group in Facebook, and the book is available in Amazon Kindle.It is now part of the book ‘The Broken Home and Other Stories’.

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THE TV FIGURATIVE

 

        FRIENDS VS HIMYM

 

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As minds who’ve matured during the growing age of tv shows we have seen some really interesting genres unfold. From the sixties till the eighties, Hollywood gave us laugh riots with the likes of the Dick van Dyke Show, Mary Tyler Moore Show, Cheers, Golden Girls and it’s spinoff Empty Nest, and I Love Lucy. However the nineties brought forward a new type of era for TV and especially comedy with shows like Friends, Mad About You, and Everybody loves Raymond. The tides changed as a greater significance for youth came into the picture. The main game changer was Friends which took youth everywhere by storm with the proper depiction of how each and every one of us face issues like unrequited love, failed marriages, divorce, short term relationships, and bad breakups during our 20s. Friends is one of the first shows to bring out the concept of fandoms and was a one of a kind dose of life to which each and every one can relate to. The magic was and remains to this day that all of us are like either of the six friends, or even a fusion of certain ones. What however brought in the need for a more in depth analysis was the arrival of juniors like How I met your Mother and Big Bang Theory. Suddenly from only comparing actors with roles we also debuted into the art of comparing two tv shows and their characters. The whole phase of Joey vs Barney, Lily vs Monica, and now coming to the main issue: How I met your Mother vs Friends was a very interesting phase.

 

A comparative overview

Friends is firstly and most importantly about what it clearly says: Friends and friendship. It’s about a group of six friends who meet all the time and hang out at a coffee shop. Their everyday career issues and relationship/dating problems are the basic subjects, along with how their lives converge as they make compromises for each other. How I met your mother also follows the plotline around a group of five individuals whose lives collide at a bar. The two can be summed up in many ways that make them look like identical cousins however both have their own individual essence. The previous more or less is about six friends who meet, talk and share experiences. HIMYM on the other hand is centred around Ted and how he met his main love interest Robin and their relationship throughout the years while being part of a group of five friends who hung out together in a bar.  How Ross and Rachel met is something we quite frankly don’t know, we know the basic backstory and see how they meet again and move from there. While being a big plot point that starts everything right at the beginning, however it isn’t what the whole show is about. Also while we’re on this, HIMYM has a bar as the centre whereas while the place of Central Perk used to originally harbor a bar.

Both of them are filled with some epic similarities. Let’s talk about some in more detail and bring out the differences:

 

  1. Two irresistible womanizers

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On one hand we have a goofy, carefree stud and on the other we have a rebellious, cunning, manipulative yet childish guy. Joey doesn’t share his food and Barney doesn’t share his suits. Joey is a struggling actor who likes to eat, sleep, and play it cool. He describes that person in all of us who is very caring but will laugh first when you fall down before helping you up. He might even be the one pushing but will never go too far. Barney is a pleaser, quite literally. He signs stuff without reading and is paid hundreds of thousands of dollars for it. He takes it all as a game and everything’s a “challenge” for him which he needs to win, even with women. Barney is a person who cares for his friends but tries hard to hide it. Where barney shares quite a few characteristics with joe, it isn’t the same otherwise. Plus Joey’s the smooth talker and smooth lover alter ego Barney would say would make him “ordi….wait for it……..nary!!”

 

  1. Two love-struck failures

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While Ted and Rachel have the “both left at the altar” going on, Ross and him are more characteristically similar as well as by gender so……ya! Both are love-struck, kind hearted idiots who’d sacrifice big for someone they care about and especially for the girl they each love. Where Ted would give Robin away for her happiness Ross would go to lengths to get Rachel the pendant she wanted. Ted and Ross have a lot of base similarities however Ross has a zone of his own, of which he is mayor (Sorry. Just had to.) whereas Ted has been in every zone. Although on a serious note that’s still true. Rosshel had ups and downs throughout just like Tobin but Tobin don’t get back together until the end (presumed). Ted is more up the creek whereas Ross is more down river sort of person. Both are crazy about their jobs and have been college professors but Ted is predominantly an architect who cares more about finding the destiny girl, whoever that may be. Ross on the other hand loves only one till the end. While both know each of their soulmates till the end, Ted mentally doesn’t till the end. Both of them are quite descriptive and tend to point out mistakes which truly annoys though.

 

  1. One predominant married couple

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You can almost see the similarities from the pictures and list the differences. Both are couples who met, and smoothly fell in love and got married. Both have an obsessive girl in the relationship. Finally both have a guy who found it to be the easiest and hardest thing to have gotten who they got. Both Chandler and Marshall numerously state the fact that they both have been bad with women and yet they somehow managed to get someone hotter as well as someone hot. The difference is where the couple of Central Perk are sexually adventurous and accommodating, the Mclaren’s counterpart is fully alike. We see Chandler and Monica complement each other individually but Lily and Marshall are mostly like two people of different gender with identical mentalities. Also Chandler has had quite a few relationships other than Monica whereas Marshall scored one home run and retired from the game.

 

  1. Career Goals

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I’ll repeat about how both shows have a professor of a subject treated as boring. Apart from that though we have other ones too. We also have a person from each show as having been in show business. Joey and Robin have a basic similarity there. Both shows have a guy who is on the second highest post of a company (and whose exact jobs we know nothing about) earning a lot while doing something he doesn’t care much about. While having different reasons and motivation individually, Chandler and Barney have that in common. Both have two people desperately trying to figure out and go with his/her dream career at different points. Friends has Rachel and Chandler while HIMYM has Lily and Marshall. The difference is Chandler was never sure of what he really wanted to do and left his job and went into a search out of frustration.

 

  1. The Best Friends

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Both groups have the two female besties who take the tradition forward. There’s the discussion in both cases, about who’s Ted’s best friend and who’s Ross’s. In many cases Joey gets upset on not being chosen as Chandler and Ross are college pals. The difference is Barney is pretty hell bent as compared to Joey. The females in Friends have a history unlike with Lily and Robin. Monica and Rachel have a deeper friendship while Lily and Robin have a deeper bond with each other. In HIMYM there are two separate male friendships, between Barney and Ted and between Ted and Marshall. In Friends there’s not much chemistry between Ross and Joey. There are only certain times like Joey’s and Ross’s sleeping together where two of the males have their own moments, except for of course Chandler-Joey moments.

 

IN CONCLUSION:

 

There are many other similarities including Ross and Rachel vs Ted and Robin, both having taken time to start and both rekindling back in the end. Barney and Robin vs Joey and Rachel, both happened but only one of them really hit big. We can go on but I think there is a simple place where both shows diverge and that mainly comes to their essence. Friends and HIMYM both teach us lessons that are completely different. The six friends each tell us ways in which we all act or react in life. There’s a Monica and Chandler in every one of us, every person who has faced hardship has a Phoebe in them. Every one of us suffering in love is a Ross just keeping on caring silently for that Rachel who means the world to us. Although fictional themselves, even the characters of HIMYM have in them traits of the six friends which is why they are so similar.

Ted and his friends teach us about the different experiences we will have in life, the ups and downs but unlike with the lives of those six, these five make us see the change taking place over time. Rachel and Ross’s relationship is mainly what we focus on as time goes by, the rest of them have relationships and experiences which don’t seem to make them grow. Even Chandler and Monica have a graph which doesn’t venture uptil the end as after they officially get together their relationship stays more or less stagnant. Ross- Rachel show us that even if there are numerous fights and differences two people who love each other will keep coming back to one another. Meanwhile Ted and Robin symbolize two people who need each other, their lives are connected by “destiny”.

 

Linguistic Differences

What is language?

Or what is a language?

Well I’d clearly say that “Language is an intellectual form that we use for the purpose of communication. It is how we get the result of our brainwaves to perfectly reach other people.”

That was the logical and scientific way of putting it. However now that we have the introduction out of the way let’s go into more detail shall we?

Language is pretty much anything that used for communication. It’s not just talking, silence is also a language.

Verbal is not the only method, non-verbal being perfectly possible. We can communicate through body language and without any words, in other words “silence”.

However today I am not here to explain communication or tell you about its types. What I am going to discuss today is regarding what my question was about: Language.

The phrase “a language” simply brings to mind the reference to a particular language such as English, French, Spanish, Dutch, Italian, Russian, German, Chinese, Japanese, and so on.

Damn! There are so many different languages. We’ve really outdone ourselves. Every language can be translated into other simpler or more complex languages. Every one of them have their twists, their own unique way of using the tongue, and separate rules which make them so.

Knowing all this, let us now go into more detail and enter the wider realm of it known as “Linguistics”. The fact that there is a science, specific regulations, a psychological method with which every language is performed brings in the concept of linguistics.

There are people who speak more than one language. If their brain and tongue become home to more than four the person is termed as a super linguist.

The concept of every language is different. Each language hence brings in a different feeling in the same dialogue. Some sound confident, some are more excited while others sound emotional. Saying “I love you” in English brings a certain effect. Now try saying the same in French: “Je t’aime”. Now let’s try Hindi: “Main tumse pyaar karta hoon”. They not only sound different but also feel different. Patriotism and regional love aside this is quite true if you honestly think about it.

You could perhaps say the beauty of the song is on a level quite different depending on the words put. What level that you decide. The essence and feeling delivered feels different especially if you take a third person point of view. I know what you’re going to say: you’re being repetitive.

Basically they bring in their own sense which are the results of their own unique cultures, and mentalities. With every language comes the ideology and culture of the place it’s from. A traveler who meets a lot of people will definitely know this, so will a guy or gal in show business. I mean not only when it comes to love, it can be anything. Language affects the level of the magic. Comedians who’ve faced their share of bad shows will understand a bit better, especially those who’ve done tours across many countries. The success of jokes always depend on language and culture to a great extent. There are other factors too but I have decided to not digress too much today.

So now you have a new and different perspective when you’re perhaps travelling the world and telling a joke, or asking out a beautiful lady, or even when trying to buy a condom.

 

A Taste of Truth

The lovely thing about a myth is that it’s perfectly playable. You can literally play with it as it’s dimensions are endless. What makes a mythology true is the same thing that makes a fact false. The concept of going on with the thesis is that if we go deep into analysis, truth is but the biological mother of fiction with falsehood being the seemingly rebellious stepson. However if we have to function on the definition of “truth” itself, the good son is the Luciferous one. We fear truth more than his scheming step brother. Why? Because he brings mischief. Truth is the one who deliberately puts up a mask, the cloud that innocently passes away and points everyone to falsehood. The funny part is truth is the liar whereas his sibling isn’t much of a faker. Concept promotes history and history as well as current affairs repeatedly proves one thing and that being: Truth itself is so contradictory that it’s almost like a lie trying to redeem itself. It is a confused entity amongst us who suffers from dissociative personality disorder. However at the same time what makes the nicely brought up child a more severe liar is the causality from his constancy when it comes to change. The good boy has his prince-hood which is more a curse to him, giving him his unsaintly desires to change every second. Falsehood is the troubling anti-hero.

Everyone brings in animals in their frequent word-fights all the time, taking that into consideration “Truth” is the snake that feeds on the eggs of it’s own kind. Falsehood is a panther, the honorable carnivore. The lawful evildoer. The sympathetic swindler.

Let’s start from the basics, we all know that at times it’s completely fine to lie to someone about something. It is, if you know that you need to tell them the truth the moment the extra beans can be let out of the sack. It is better to lie and tell your wife about the broken plate later when no one gets agitated and hurt than just say it then and there.

Scientifically, if you’re being truthful to someone about ninety percent of the instance you’re narrating is wearing a protective jacket on the basis of how important that piece of narrative is. This is true irrespective of what that piece of “truth” might be. The fact is when you’re being false it is a two way gamble but when you’re trying to be truthful it’s a gamble with possibilities harder to comprehend.

Truth does take a person a long way, that point is noted. However what if each lie we tell is actually a clearer version of what’s actually “true” about ourselves and the “truth” is the lie the world tells us to admit to. Myths are termed to be lies whereas legends are termed as basis of truth even though both categories have stories which can have equal amounts of falsification.

Truth is a conclusion approved while a lie is a scrapped conjecture. It’s better to keep it a conjecture because the conclusion isn’t constant.

The truth is a very devilish thing. The liar in your life is quite cruel but deep down you know that truthful friend of your’s can torture the satan inside you. The fact that anything is true is a myth really.

 

 

A SATISFACTORY SOLUTION

The one thing I never get but I want it so badly is satisfaction. Hearing what you’ve always wanted to say out loud must have given you a grave satisfaction? To be honest, getting it is quite easy. So easy that it’s just hard to understand how it really works. Basically tell yourself that whatever it is, it makes you feel positive. Whatever people say, think that it makes you feel good. Tell yourself things that a movie usually tells you. The indirect hints and taunts the last movie gave you can be taken as compliments. The learnings should be taken as a perfect gain from the sudden occasions.

It’s very simple. Take every occasion with open arms and welcome the goodness of every single one of them. You got to take in the melons no matter how sour they are. You have to give yourself an excuse to believe you’re satisfied, no matter what it might be. It can be anything. Heck! The people might question your personality because of the nature of the excuses but at the end of the day they will also judge you based on how the outcomes of your life are treating you.

Some of us are such that others make fun of us, secretly dislike us and even defame us. Some are victims of some really harsh behavior. For most harsh would be just a way to put it from their point of view. Mental torment is bigger than it looks but like just about any other form differs from person to person in terms of how much is needed to make the break.

The thing is that there are a lot of things that will disturb you throughout the way. It may be your work, it obviously can be people, or it can be the situation. You really need to tell yourself to press the ignore button, try to fool yourself that there isn’t anything wrong, not with you nor with the other person. Lie to yourself, you’ll feel better because if you know yourself best you’ll know what I’m telling you will work better than trying to fight it the usual way.

The fact of the matter is that we are programmed to want more and are always in search for perfection. It’s either generally that or we just want a situation that treats us best individually. No matter how you explain it, we’re going to keep wanting more.

The blissful thunder that you have inside you is going to have to get used to coming and going on rarer occasions than it used to. You’re going to have to get used to it too. You just have to keep living on. This is going to have to satisfy you for life. That’s how you stay strong. Saying “live with it” doesn’t help, you got to know why. You have to really understand that everything is a test and every single thing you believe is inhumane is not. It’s clearly the opposite and the most important thing you have to carve inside your mind is the fact that no matter what you have to learn to love yourself more. There are going to be times when you’ll need it, your satisfaction will mean it. You will search for someone for moments like those but you’ll have no one but yourself. The heart will ponder and obsess over incredible situations and you’ll satisfy yourself by slowly drowning yourself in forgetfulness.

When it comes to the question of how much you’re worth think of it like this:

You’re the flower not everybody wants to pick. You’re not a rose so whoever picks you is damn sure of what he/she is doing. A lot of blokes are going to take the leap when it comes to the numero uno but everyone’s thought of it before they’ve chosen the lesser favorite option.

No more rants. Keep being who you are. Keep moving forward your own way. Be satisfied being yourself no matter how hard it is. It’s not easy for others to be you, so you’re definitely better at something.

 

 

 

 

Girls & Guys

Girls are hard to please and after years of constant mishap even girls pretty well know that. Trust me, if you haven’t met or seen a girl who hasn’t admitted it, you’ve just not met a girl who’s being frank or one who has realized the truth of it yet.

However I would say there is actually a “but”, a big “B….U…T”. First of all I am pretty sure there is a number of you laughing or even just giving a sarcastic smile  since you’re seeing a guy talk about girls. Well as a fellow compatriot I would definitely like to share my experiences with you guys, and to the cute girls reading this I’d just like to say “Hey all you beautiful people.”. Ok before I go on I’d just like to tell you this might get sexist at places so don’t kill me in advance. Basically it’s supposed to. It’s a thesis based on the clear majority which is personally experienced.

Okay so let’s now talk about this. Clearly one of the main reasons women are so complicated is because well there are literally so many types of women. Now I bet now my side’s going like “Hey they are different types of guys too man shut up!”. Well Elmer Fudd let me tell you that even though you’re right you’re kinda not as well. You see the thing is no matter how many types of men there are personality-wise or charm-wise or even the guy’s a calisthenic pro, the thing is that if a cute girl approaches him and wants to go out with him, like let’s say she gives him her number. She could also be completely upfront with him,by the way I recently saw this girl say that they are more upfront than guys are. Basically the point is that no matter how she does it a guy is most probably gonna accept.

Well that girl claimed that particular point on behalf of girls. Well I would like to claim something on behalf of us guys, we guys are less picky. This is true no matter how much we go like “oh no that one’s not cute enough” or “that one’s so hot. I want her”. We say that for every second girl and half of the time they aren’t as pretty as the last. I am not generalizing but the way I have seen, when a girl goes like “He’s cute”, the guy’s actually quite cute. I assure you I am straight. Also they don’t go calling 10 guys cute in the same day, we do that not them. I admit it on behalf of them. Both sides have exceptional people too who go on a mature and advanced category. That’s like the best possible thing I can say to maintain equality at the moment.

A guy needs to stop thinking like a sleuth, think twisted or treat it like a game of chess cause truly that complicates things. It’s only that hard to understand cause you aint taking the simple route. If you want a girl just go and ask her out, like seriously go and say “Can I ask you out?”. If you think she’s cute tell her “You’re cute.”. Stop worrying because she’ll only think you a bit mad at the most. Personal experience bros. Even if you just want to hook up man, dude even they think about it. You know it and I sure as hell know it. Don’t beat about the bush man, it’s less bothersome. Slick words be real smooth but even awkward is cute, each to their own set of people. A person feels better when the other person just states what they want clearly and honestly, it’s easier for them to decide, again clearly and honestly. If you can be straightforward, whether you get her not, she definitely isn’t gonna seem complicated. You just got to be not afraid of not catching a few fish. And for all you know the girl you think is cute might think you’re the same after some of the intentional or unintentional cool acts you pull sometimes.

Trust me on this: No matter who you are, there’s always a handful of the opposite gender who harbor a crush on you for at least a month.

What type of girl likes what type of guys or vice versa is like a secondary phase, a second class pronoun. Both genders have their present characteristic differences because of the way the other one acts.

 

 

This Time You Realize

You know sometimes you’re living a day of great fun, filled with food, booze and girls or boys, and it goes as fast as a roadrunner with you simultaneously wondering how it did and wishing there was more time. Other times you’re just living a life filled with despair, boredom, annoyances, basically misery and you wonder how it goes so slow as well as when will it end. You kind of wish for the weekend to come so you can cuddle with your bed instead of having to embrace the cheap tricks. Time is an entity that betrays you every time if you think about it and it’s kind of ironic when people tell you that you don’t give it too much value. If you think about it quite frankly, every decision we have made and are going to make has been the wrong one or is therefore going to be a wrong one. Time has affected it and has forever been quite harsh, we’ve just forever taken it lightly. You never get enough time to enjoy and get the most amount of time to repent for not having got it. To be completely honest it is because I value time which is why I know how hard it is. I would say that if you truly value something, it is then that you begin having the patience to analyze it and fish out it’s flaws.

One of my previous crushes, I would always give her chocolates with a lily. One day she told me that it’s getting quite old and that it wouldn’t work because she didn’t feel the same way. She asked why even while knowing that I kept going on with the gesture. I smiled and told her that I loved to see that happiness she got in getting something so simple. She got much more expensive and flashier stuff from others but from my present made her give a genuine smile. “Well thank you but you can stop now. It’s getting old too. Also you know I love roses too so why always lilies?” she said. “Well it’s because when I give you roses you like the gesture but have nothing to say. When I give you lilies you always speak about what you don’t like about it but how it’s a type of flower you still like. You give it enough importance to analyze it.”. We’ve been quite close ever since.

Some people might have the notion that it is not time that is fast or slow, it is we who are always slower. Let’s just say that in my case, old grandfather clock has never really been with me. He treasures this grandson quite on the down side. You can actually feel the difference because of it. You have so many phrases related to the subject of time but have you wondered how we’ve never gone past it’s trivial meaning?

                                          “It’s not the time”                       “Time up!”

“This time I will!”                         “Time to go.”

 

There are many more phrases like these that seem completely unrelated. The fact is that we never go past the passing remark and see how time truly does wait for no one. Even that phrase is taken quite casually. It’s really never your time and time isn’t ever up, your chance has just passed. You can never rely on an external entity, trust me when I say this: Each of them betrays you every time. We all technically want to have the life of our dreams to come true and wait for the correct time, trust me the flower ain’t blooming without you watering it every day. It’s not about the time, it’s about your time.

Well speaking of my own time, that’s where the flower’s already bloomed quite well but it’s dying quickly and now time is of the essence.

The Passing

I continued to tread through a dreadful mist of lies but suddenly I took a left turn and saw the truth before me. Surprisingly the truth was just that whenever I keep telling myself the same lie, it decides to show itself to me after an odd number of times. The lie was that I only thought of her in that way because she was the girl everyone want. The Prized One or the best possible thing that makes you class material if you get her. It’s good to lie to yourself, but it’s bad when you can’t shake the fact that it’s a lie when you’re saying it. The fact that I adore her and it’s actually not a crush but something way above in the food chain is questionable when you cannot fathom how or why it escalated so quickly.

Facing the fact, I wanted to speak but normally it’s hard enough truthfully, now I had to find the courage to move up and reason with it. Cutting on the metaphors, I’ll tell you that if there was any other moment which had been so educational, it would still be right after this one. This meeting was the silent pass by but the fact is the silence delivered quite an intensive speech.

She walked through the crowd while moving her hair with one hand and holding her phone in the other. It was a reminder that the situation didn’t look to have aged at all. Her eyes as beautiful as they were oblivious to my presence. She didn’t seemed to have aged at all, rather looked to have become younger. In a few seconds I became from aimless to analytical and that hurts.

How easy it was just crossing paths without even letting them collide is what you realize. However meanwhile everything isn’t looking so great on the inside. There is worry, anxiety and fear regarding what the person should do. Should he walk up and face his fear? What measures should he take? What is the bloody plan?

I wish I could say everybody’s right and I should perhaps either face her or face it. Well thing is I am moving on but cannot be rid of her. I have reached the new level where I have perhaps escaped her but she hasn’t yet escaped my mind. She keeps coming back, my mind keeps bringing her back at times. Well for one thing the constant wishes got me to see her live again however that birdwatching session showed me something new. The same thing but through the eyes of sensibility did I see it.

Now with that I am one step closer to ridding myself off self-torture. I would be lying if I say I didn’t feel like the world is stealing her away from me now that we don’t exist to each other, well at least me to her but then what can you do right? Everyone has to move on and it was now my turn to seriously do that, however at the same time I’ll keep some hope for the next nine years.